Random Mixture of Random Ramblings

I think that it's safe to say that alot has changed in my life since the last time that I posted anything. Alot of it is for the better. Actually all of it is. I promised myself that I would stop doubting myself, stop regretting things that cannot be changed. And shouldn't be changed. Cause my life would be all suckish if I changed it. I love my life.

Just sometimes it's hard to remember that.

I guess I've just been repressing alot of emotions and worries lately. We're back in the routine of schoolm, and yet I'm still craving summer. The leaves are changing. The most beautiful shades. Everytime I look out the window I see a masterpiece in the making. I wish I had more time to paint...

Fifth year is draining me. Completely and totally. If I'm not busy with homework or study I'm worrying about it all. I hate this so much. I feel like it's some sort of parasytic being just draining me of everything. Like that thing that was on Warehouse 13 last night (I may be swamped, but I still have time for tv).

Well, since I last blogged, one relationship took a new... direction. It's best for us all, I really think so. And I hope that he will eventually forgive me. He says he does-I don't know though.

Okay! Change of mood!

I'm too depressed to be concentrating on the doom and gloom that's been going on in my life. Gotta start thinking about the good things (and there are plenty of those).

Well... The Cavan lads and St. Paul's girls have formed a bond of awesomeness that twill be damned near impossible to break. Hanging in town and meeting/not REALLY meeting cause we ran off, Ozzy Osbourne was epic day to the max. Thanks guys, I love ya'll.

Then there's Dec's 18th pokernight. That was one pretty amazing night (the night of the Moodle reunion coincidently. Great day...). Had lots of fun and met a/some extra awesome guy(s). ;)

I have also become even more obsessed with Japanese pop music/anime. It's kinda sad. And English Lit. raps. And crazy videos on Youtube. I actually just spend my evenings browsing YouTube. Cause I'm sad like that (Y).

MC Lars, Lemon Demon... YES!!! XD

Also web comics. I (L) them with a firely passion now. Still reading my favourites; XKCD, CtrlAltDel, Cyanide and Happiness-but also started reading Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal. And writing my own. Which kinda suck, but the effort's there.

The Guild. I've been watching alot of thet... It's good, but I do NOT look like the chick in it. Codex is hotter than me ;)

Chicks who people say I look like, but who I clearly DON'T look like:

• Yer wan from Twilight
• Emma Watson (Hermonie Granger in Harry Potter)
• Amy Adams (The princess in Enchanted)
• Hayley Williams (from Paramore)
• and now Codex from the Guild

This list will probably grow... It always seems to.

Granddad, I'm missing you lots and you've been on my mind more than ever lately...